Suicidal Thoughts = Joke?

“Every day is just 24 hours of me not killing myself.”

This morning, October 12th, 2021, I stumbled upon a video on YouTube. I clicked almost as fast to the title “Casually Suicidal”.

The video was posted by TEDx Talks. The speaker was Sarah Liberti. She introduced herself as a music student.

At the beginning of the video, she opened it up with a joke “What is it called a music student with a 4.00? Suicidal” and everyone in that room laughed. She was startled but she also saw that coming. She knew that almost everyone in this whole world wanted to end their life. Hence she showed us a slide show with some “suicidal meme”. Yes, a meme based on suicidal thoughts. Isn’t that ironic? But I’m positive most of us relate to those jokes.

Through this 18 minutes video, I actually find something. I see that this world is actually hurting. People are hurting because of people. People are casually feeling discomfort talking about and with people with suicidal thoughts. People are avoiding people with suicidal thoughts. People don’t want to deal with people that are suicidal. I actually feel sorry for those who have these kinds of thoughts, just like how Sarah feels sorry for her old best friends and her religion teacher.

In our religious society, as to how Sarah shared to the audience at that time, people that ended their life are considered as sinners. They would go straight to hell with zero chance to taste heaven. How sad. Her teacher said they gave away God’s most beautiful gift: life. As for me, I agree. Life is beautiful in every way. Its beauty consists of not only pain but also happiness and that’s how we can live as human beings. We feel and we think, therefore we exist.

I stated before that people are hurting because of people. People want to end up their life because of people. But the thing is, we also need people to recover. We need people to live, to help us live, or at least feel alive. People are the main reason why some of us are casually suicidal and we need them to change these kinds of thoughts, to make this funny world we live in a better place, so we can all die naturally (and to not be considered as a sinner, of course).

Regardless of what religion we have (or not), I want to ask whoever reading this to reach out for help and also to reach out to anyone with signs of suicide. Asking “are you okay?” or “how was your day?” or “how are you today?” will help even just a tiny bit (we can agree that therapy is extremely expensive, so let’s do this as an alternative, shall we?). Even if we can’t do this every day, at least let’s agree to not judge their decision. Because when people are willingly, casually suicidal, they’re truly are in pain to the point where they want their life to come to an end.

To sum up, I hope everyone reading this would have a beautiful life ahead. We all have our own pain, our own sorrow, our own depression. So let’s be more considerate to people around us, especially ourselves. Be kind to yourself and others, shall we?

Don’t be so hard on yourself, buddy. You got this.